| i'm so bored i'm updating my xanga...how sad is that?...hmmm. i actually don't have anything to write about...soooooooooo..... hmmmmmmmmmm.....competition yesterday.....won by 7 freaking points...wooo!!!...87.05 or something like that...then i see that liberty has like..and 88.75 or something...and freaking lake lehman broke a 92...w/e we can totally take you guys.....=))))) |
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| omg...i'm so freaking confused....it's just that...well...i'm gonna rant on here because it's not like anyone's gonna read it and i need to get all these thoughts out of my head somehow ok.....so...i made a decision yesterday that....well...u don't need to know exactly what...but i was completely and totally behind that decision 100%...but then we go to the dance tonight...and something else happens that has me doubting my decision...and like...questioning a lot..but...yeah i don't know what to do and it all just makes me feel like a sluttish whorebag...so i'm gonna leave you with that |
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| y is is that i only update this when i'm really really really upset.....o well......well...here i am again....geez....this sucks |
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| ok...i'm gonna put all my feelings on here...since noone reads this anymore...soooooo.. ok...anyone who hasn't heard yet...i'm single again...since wednesday......so w/e....yeah...it hurts like hell.....cause i didn't see it coming at all....and he dumped me for some other girl...that he met like...a couple of days ago...and now he's dating her..he started less than 24 hrs. after he dumped me.....just when i thought my heart couldn't be in littler pieces...he finds a way to crush it even more......god...y didn't i listen when like EVERYONE told me not to go out with him....they told me that he would end up hurting me...but i guess my feelings had me blinded to reality...cause i sure as hell didn't see this coming.......this is gonna take me a little or should i say long while to get over......god i wish i could control my emotions so i didn't like him anymore....and so this didn't hurt...and i also wish i could control tears...but i can't do that either...as i found out at practice last night....i was doin ok....but then idk...i just broke down...and thank god for my friends......morgan, jenna, rae.....even owen....and baugher...surprisingly...hahahahahha...thank you guys.....just remember.....we'll use a squash, and tomatoes, and apples...and even the flag....HAHAHA.....that made me laugh...so it was a little better...and then i decided to just fake happy...i thought i was doing pretty well..til like...the last 20 minutes of practice...where it all just became too much to take...so i couldn't take it...and just broke down again....luckily...my friends were there again.....ok......i'm done ranting...b/c noone's gonna read it anyways...and if u did...thanks |
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| well...since i haven't updated this in like..a month...i guess i will, even though i seriously doubt anyone's gonna read it...but oh well.... i don't even know what to write about.....soooooooooo.....ummmmm......yeahhhhhhh..... all i can think of to say is that chicago's in 2 days and i haven't even started packing...just have a whole pile of stuff in my room to take...i guess i'd better start doing that... |
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